Failure

I have had a crazy November.  I’ve had a most stressful event occurring and it has pulled at my time and attention and has brought me a huge amount of anxiety.  I’ve not coped with it well and the worst part is that I’ve lost my focus.

In short, I didn’t write on my book.  Hardly any.  At all.  I’ve reviewed my notes on a couple of occasions and tried to think about my book but that’s it.  I’ve failed.  And during the month when I had signed up to do NANOWRIMO–when I was supposed to be reporting to the world how much progress I was making.  The accountability was supposed to help.

I know that it doesn’t matter.  That what I’ve been dealing with just had to be dealt with but still it stinks.  I’ve failed.

What have I learned?

First, that I push myself too hard.  I want to do it all.  NOW.

Second, that even without focus I still have desire.  That book is going to get written.

Third, that my family loves me anyway.  Even if I don’t get it all done.

That’s enough for now.

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