I have had a crazy November. I’ve had a most stressful event occurring and it has pulled at my time and attention and has brought me a huge amount of anxiety. I’ve not coped with it well and the worst part is that I’ve lost my focus.
In short, I didn’t write on my book. Hardly any. At all. I’ve reviewed my notes on a couple of occasions and tried to think about my book but that’s it. I’ve failed. And during the month when I had signed up to do NANOWRIMO–when I was supposed to be reporting to the world how much progress I was making. The accountability was supposed to help.
I know that it doesn’t matter. That what I’ve been dealing with just had to be dealt with but still it stinks. I’ve failed.
What have I learned?
First, that I push myself too hard. I want to do it all. NOW.
Second, that even without focus I still have desire. That book is going to get written.
Third, that my family loves me anyway. Even if I don’t get it all done.
That’s enough for now.